Do you feel that the color has drained from your life? You look around and everything has lost its vibrancy, like someone has messed with the filters of life. But your life isn’t Instagram and you can’t quickly change the filter back from sepia or black and white, to full color. If only it were that simple. It can leave you frustrated as to why you feel empty, alone, in a fugue state. It can come from nowhere, like something is in the shadows, waiting to pounce, but instead of attacking, it’s taken something from you, leaving an emptiness.
Deconstructing Depression shows up in many forms. It can show up in the guise of insomnia, recurring illnesses, irritation, helplessness. Of course, all of these are normal and natural human emotions and situations, but it’s when they all stack up and become a compounding problem and it’s suffocating you, that it becomes something that needs addressing.
You may never have suffered deconstructing depression before, so can’t recognize it at first. Of course, it can also be situational Depression. A recent break up, lost your job, a recent bereavement. Depression can happen to anyone. You can be successful, have a stable family, enough money and still be depressed. We need to look deeper as to why it’s happening. It could be repressed emotions that you have bottled up over time. Years or even decades worth.
Deconstructing Depression is always because we are holding onto something. Something we need to let go of, it may be several things. It may be a deep seated survival mechanism we have honed over the years. To always contain our thoughts, feelings, problems, rather than to let go of them. Letting go may mean, fear, shame, guilt, but expressing those feelings aren’t as bad as repressing them. Repression can lead to anger, which can affect your relationships and it can even bring on chronic illness. It can leave your life spiraling out of control.
Signs of Deconstructing Depression
- Fatigue and decreased energy
- Feelings of hopelessness/pessimism
- Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and/or helplessness
- Difficulty concentrating
- Nothing cheers you up
- Over eating/under eating as a way to feel better or to punish yourself
- Suicidal thoughts
How to overcome Depression
Talk Talk Talk! (preferably to a professional Therapist) Medication has it’s place and can certainly help you cope with day to day life, but it’s really whether you just want to cope with life, or you want to enjoy it and remove yourself from the shackles that’s holding you back. The only way you can overcome depression, is talking through your problems and uncovering subconscious patterns you were unaware of. Once you recognize them, you can change them!
Depression is the most unpleasant thing I have ever experienced. . . . It is that absence of being able to envisage that you will ever be cheerful again. The absence of hope. That very deadened feeling, which is so very different from feeling sad. Sad hurts but it’s a healthy feeling. It is a necessary thing to feel. Depression is very different.– J.K. Rowling